Mother issues are on the agenda. It’s time to deal with the universal archetype of the mother as well as your own personal experience with having one or being one. Most importantly, learn to mother yourself.

That is my horoscope for today. And it just so happens or actually, not just so – the horoscope people would have you believe that it is most definitely not a coincidence that lots of motherish things have been on my mind these days.

  • Over this past weekend, a young man from our local high school was killed in a senseless driving accident. It was late at night, he was in a brand new sporty machine and high speeds and wet roads don’t mix. Thankfully he was alone in the car. I did not know this boy. I do not know his mother. I can’t stop thinking about her.
  • Last night my friend took her gigantic, football playing boy/man to the ER with a very high fever. When I spoke with her, the fever was on its way down and they were leaning toward thinking it was viral and not his appendix. He will be fine. She will be fine. But in one quick instant he became not this teenager on the doorstep of adulthood, but reverted to the little boy we all remember.
  • My teenager on the doorstep of adulthood is coming home today. D#1 has a long weekend after this past midterm week. D#1 still loves college life. However, sophomore year is not the fun-fest that freshmen year was (which is a good thing!). She is tired. She is re-assessing her planned major. She has been struggling. Her intention was to double major in education & math. Some grinding calc classes are making her rethink. Which is also a good thing.

And since some of you do enjoy the knitting, here is an Icarus update: I am not enlarging it. Because it is already significantly bigger.

I am using Blue Sky Alpaca Alpace/Silk and it is a sport weight. The pattern is written for a lace weight yarn. When Cara was here she brought her Seraphim Shawl. This is also written by Mim and is also a mostly stockinette stitch shawl with a lace border. Figuring the proportion of lace to stockinette would be roughly the same in both shawls, I decided to compare their center lines. Mine was at the point where the stockinette ends and the lace work begins. The Seraphim and Icarrus center lines were exactly the same length. And mine is not blocked. Since I am using bigger yarn, my lace section will be bigger and the blocking process will add considerably to the overall size. I will also tell you that there were some yarn concerns in the decision as well. (although I would have made the same decision without them) Fingers crossed that I have enough!

so here’s the thing. The Icarus Shawl, which I said yesterday that I wanted to make bigger, is already bigger. The pattern calls for lace weight and I am using something along the lines of fingering/sport. Now the question is how much bigger?

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I have not yet begun the lace repeats and the stockinette portion is reaching to my wrist. Although I am also just now noticing how in this picture, the shawl is unevenly positioned on the model. Do you see how it is all bunched up over her other arm? Does this mean that in its natural position, that lace edging would not reach her wrist? argh! I hate these f**ing misleading pictures!

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A little bit of everything today. First off, the home improvement project – a new foyer light fixture! Mr. Boar says, “It’s nice, but what was wrong with the old one”

Next up, the knitting. Ann says, “I am so sick of this I want to take my Addis and stab myself in the eye.”

And to make matters worse, even though I am on the final stockinette repeat according to the directions, I am also at the point where if I want to make this bigger, I should add another repeat. I DO want to make this bigger. I DO NOT want to knit another repeat! argh!

Cara is coming over tomorrow – maybe I can get her to knit it for me?